Hoarding Q's and looking for A's

Recently I read a post on hoarding. It was something along the lines of "we all hoard things in some fashion or another." You can hoard anything and everything, from clothes to emotions. Here I am and I think I am hoarding decisions. Internal, "how should I feel right now?" decisions. I'm hoarding them. Stock-piling them in some corner that I just hope will disappear. Keeping them there for a real, rainy day. Avoiding them because of the unknown which they hold.

I don't consider myself overly indecisive (unless I am hungry or even starving ... then deciding what to eat or worse where to eat is impossible). Could it be that I am in fact emotionally indecisive? How did that happen? Does it happen when you let your heart grow? Does it happen when you open yourself completely? Does it happen when you want to trust?

Those are my Q's for now.

Today I changed. How much I just don't know- but I changed. There was a shift inside me that felt okay. Just okay and maybe a bit better than I thought it would. It all started with a line, one silly, simple, harmonious line. How much will change and how far it will go time will tell.

I think maybe my A's might be in this change.